I Surrender

I am going to start with some scriptures to introduce my topic but will be replacing a few words with words that apply more to my situation. 2 Nephi 4:18-23, 26 reads, “I am encompassed about, because of the discouragement and the sins which do so easily beset me. And when I desire to rejoice, my heart groaneth because of my pain; nevertheless, I know in whom I have trusted. My God hath been my support; he hath led me through mine afflictions in the wilderness; and he hath preserved me upon the waters of the great deep” (In stake conference Bro. Young talked about how the wilderness is our life and the waters are the tribulations in life). To continue, “He hath filled me with his love, even unto the consuming of my flesh. He hath confounded mine enemies, unto the causing of them to quake before me. Behold, he hath heard my cry by day, and he hath given me knowledge by visions in the night-time.” Verse 26 reads, “O then, if I have seen so great things, if the Lord in his condescension unto the children of men hath visited men in so much mercy, why should my heart weep and my soul linger in the valley of sorrow, and my flesh waste away, and my strength slacken, because of mine afflictions?” In Alma 36:3 it reads, "...for I do know that whosoever shall put their trust in God shall be supported in their trials, and their troubles, and their afflictions, and shall be lifted up at the last day,"

            One phrase that kept coming up as I studied scriptures about trust was, praising God, “What does it mean to praise God?” When Nephi’s brothers tied him up on the boat and storms came and drove them the opposite direction that they should go it says that Nephi “did look unto my God, and I did praise him all the day long.” Ether 6:9 is similar saying, "And they did sing praises unto the Lord; yea, the brother of Jared did sing praises unto the Lord, and he did thank and praise the Lord all the day long; and when the night came, they did not cease to praise the Lord.". I don’t think that praising God all day long means that these people were singing “Glory, Glory Hallelujah” all their waking moments, rather I think it means that they had a quiet trust and faith that God was with them and everything will be okay whatever happens.

            In October’s conference of last year, Elder L. Todd Budge gave a talk entitled, Consistent and Resilient Trust. Consistent means occurring continuously over a period of time. Resilient means recoil or spring back into shape after bending, stretching, or compressing, meaning it doesn’t break. His talk is based around the story of the brother of Jared and him and his people’s crossing to the promised land. Some points I got from my reading of it are these, afflictions and sorrow prepare us to experience joy if we will trust in the Lord and His plan for us, we cannot cross the great deep save God prepares a way for us, the only way to make it back to Heaven is through Jesus Christ, we are not in control the only way to make it successfully through life and back to God is by trusting Him, and the wind never ceases to blow us towards God, even during our darkest trials God is guiding us towards our Heavenly home.

            Last fall as I discussed with my doctor what to do next, she gave me 2 options, between a shot and a pill. I felt prompted to choose the shot. So, I did, and things got worse from there. The shot has many side effects, each day I feel like I have the flu because of how achy I get, 3-4 days a week I feel like I’m in a dream and am unsure what is real. Because I got worse, I started researching the treatments and the disease itself and found out how much damage this shot can cause to my body and how it doesn’t actually treat the endometriosis. I found specialists who actually know the ins and outs of this disease that I am in the process of getting appointments with. If I hadn’t trusted God and listened to that prompting to try the shot I wouldn’t have researched and been guided to this option.

             I read something recently about how this lady told God she was going to date this guy, God told her no. So, she didn’t, but as time went on, she was still feeling like she was in a rut and felt prompted to date the guy that God told her no about, she ended up marrying him. She wondered why she got 2 different answers if God is an unchangeable God? She realized that when she got her first answer she could only partially see what was next, but when she got the prompting to date the guy she saw the whole picture and recognized that only God sees the whole picture all the time. If we trust Him, we will be guided to where we need to be. I had a similar experience. At the beginning of January, I felt prompted to take a couple of online classes. So, I signed up and began them. A couple weeks into the semester I felt even worse physically and mentally and knew my body and mind were not up to taking classes, I decided to take another leave of absence and after praying felt peace that it was the right decision. I was confused, like the girl in the story, I’d felt like I had received two different answers and I was questioning my ability to receive revelation. When I read her story, something clicked, and I remembered another bit of inspiration I received when I felt peace about taking the leave of absence.  I had the strong feeling accompanied by the thought that I would not need to take another leave of absence from school. If I had not begun classes I wouldn’t have needed another leave of absence and would not have received that revelation. Again, I never have the whole picture, but I know that Heavenly Father does and everything that happens and every prompting I respond to is guiding me along the path I need to take to return to him someday.

            As most of you know I served as a service missionary for a brief time last fall. When I received that revelation to serve, I was having a little bit of pain, but for the most part I was functioning normally and able to do what needed to be done. I was a missionary for exactly 2 months, but only served at my assignments for 3 weeks. As my health got worse and I was in more and more pain I started praying to know what I should do about my mission. As I was visiting one day with a friend, the thought suddenly came that I had done what God wanted me to do in my mission and to ask to be released. I was terribly confused about why I was called in the first place if I barely served for 3 weeks. When I met with President Mecham he reminded me of Abraham and Isaac’s story. The reason Abraham was asked to sacrifice Isaac and at the last moment commanded to stop, was to test Abraham and see if he would obey God no matter the cost. By serving my mission especially when it wasn’t in my plans to do so, I proved to God that I would do whatever He asked me and by placing my trust in Him and His plan for my life other learning opportunities have presented themselves.

            So, I looked up some synonyms of the word trust, it came up with the words, confidence, assurance, credit, dependence, reliance, faith, and hope. When we trust God, we have confidence that He will help us and that He loves us. In Doctrine and Covenants 82:10 it reads, "I, the Lord, am bound when ye do what I say; but when ye do not what I say, ye have no promise". Thus, we have the assurance that if we trust god by obeying His commandments and keeping our covenants, He will do as He has promised. When we give credit to God for the blessings in our lives by showing gratitude, we are putting our trust in God. When we are grateful for the rain that leads to the rainbow, we are trusting that God has better things in store for us. Elder Uchtdorf once said, “Being grateful IN our circumstances is an act of faith in God. True gratitude is an expression of hope and testimony. It comes from acknowledging that we do not always understand the trials of life but trusting that one day we will.”

            Back to the synonyms of trust, next is dependence and reliance. Simply put, we cannot return to Heaven without Christ or our Heavenly Father. When we depend and rely on them completely, we prove we trust them to take us where we need to go. Under faith in the Bible dictionary it says, “To have faith is to have confidence in something or someone”. As said earlier, confidence is another equivalent of trust. In the True to the Faith book it says, “When times of trial come, faith can give you strength to press forward and face your hardships with courage. Even when the future seems uncertain, your faith in the Savior can give you peace.” Under hope in the True to the Faith it states that, “the word hope is sometimes misunderstood. In our everyday language, the word often has a hint of uncertainty such as hoping for a change in the weather or hoping a friend will come visit. In the language of the gospel, however, the word hope is sure, unwavering, and active. Prophets speak of having a firm and lively hope. When we have hope we trust God’s promises.” Do you remember what the definition of consistent and resilient were? Continuously stretching and never breaking in our trust in God. Or in other words, unwavering and active.

I would like to close with the lyrics from the song I Surrender By: Leslie Ludy.

Lord, I know You see this fear in my heart
what my future holds
I feel You softly ask if I can trust You more
and give You control
So I kneel before You now
and I offer everything
Come and be the Lord of all
-All I am or ever hope to be
I surrender, I surrender
to the One who loves me more than life
I surrender, I surrender
here is my heart
I open it wide
To the One who cannot be unfaithful
I now offer You all that I am
I surrender, I surrender
From this day on I´ll be in your hands

I´ve been living for myself
and now I want to live for You alone
Come and help me when I´m weak
And when my path seems so unknown
You´ll be beside me still
I know You want what´s best for me
So when I want to take control
Lord, please, come and help my unbelief

I surrender, I surrender
to the One who loves me more than life
I surrender, I surrender
here is my heart
I open it wide
To the One who cannot be unfaithful
I now offer You all that I am
I surrender, I surrender
From this day on I´ll be in your hands

Love,
Kenzie

Beyond Comprehension

Being human, I cannot comprehend or imagine the amount of pain Jesus Christ went through in the Garden of Gethsemane and on the cross at Calvary. It has always been said that the worst pain a woman experiences is childbirth and the worst pain a man encounters is having a kidney stone. Now, imagine this... As of right now we have roughly 7.5 billion people on the earth, that number fluctuates daily, even minutely. Okay, now add that to the billions and trillions of other human beings that have graced this earth since Adam and Eve were cast out of the Garden of Eden. Think of how many women that is that have given birth and how many men that have dealt with kidney stones. However, that is not the only pain experienced by humankind. There is: broken bones, surgeries, broken hearts, migraines, shingles, heart attacks, arthritis, slipped disks, appendicitis, endometriosis, gout, ulcers, fibromyalgia, and mental illnesses, not to mention even the small pains such as: stubbed toes, scratched knees, stepping on a lego, pulled muscles, etc, etc. Now imagine how every bit of pain ranging from a mosquito bite to multiple sclerosis and beyond was felt by one man...one perfect, loving, Son of God. It is so hard to envision being tested by just you and your family's pain, but to picture taking upon oneself every single being whoever enriched this earth for any amount of time's pain is mind-boggling. If there is one thing I've learned though, it is that we don't have to understand it to believe it. In Alma 32:21 it reads, "And now as I said concerning faith—faith is not to have a perfect knowledge of things; therefore if ye have faith ye hope for things which are not seen, which are true." I know I am not perfect, I don't have perfect looks, a perfect life, or perfect faith. Be that as it may, I still have faith and I still have hope. Christ didn't give up in the Garden or on the Cross, sure He asked if He must continue, but He told Heavenly Father "not my will, but thine be done". Because Christ didn't give up on us we don't have to suffer as He did nor do we have to suffer alone. Doctrine and Covenants 104:82 reads, "And inasmuch as ye are humble and faithful and call upon my name, behold, I will give you the victory." Read that again, "And inasmuch as ye are humble and faithful and call upon my name, behold, I will give you the victory." All He asks is that we pray in faith, realizing we can't conquer on our own. He wants to help us! I know most the time that doesn't mean He will take it from us though He has the power to do so, usually it means He will strengthen us to lift the burdens we carry, succor us through the pain, or comfort us in the midst of affliction. Elder David A. Bednar once said, "Strong faith in the Savior is submissively accepting of His will and timing in our lives, even if the outcome is not what we hoped for or wanted." So, even though there is no way we can comprehend the amount of pain, heartache, and anguish the Savior suffered, we can have faith that He did endure it all. He hurt for me and He hurt for you and I believe He hurts more when we don't ask Him for help. I am so thankful for a loving Savior who went through the exact pain I am burdened with so that I don't have to abide it alone. One of my favorite hymns reads this,

1. 
   
1. 1. I stand all amazed at the love Jesus offers me,
   Confused at the grace that so fully he proffers me.
   I tremble to know that for me he was crucified,
   That for me, a sinner, he suffered, he bled and died.
2. Oh, it is wonderful that he should care for me
   Enough to die for me!
   Oh, it is wonderful, wonderful to me!
3. 2. I marvel that he would descend from his throne divine
   To rescue a soul so rebellious and proud as mine,
   That he should extend his great love unto such as I,
   Sufficient to own, to redeem, and to justify.
4. Oh, it is wonderful that he should care for me
   Enough to die for me!
   Oh, it is wonderful, wonderful to me!
5. 3. I think of his hands pierced and bleeding to pay the debt!
   Such mercy, such love and devotion can I forget?
   No, no, I will praise and adore at the mercy seat,
   Until at the glorified throne I kneel at his feet.
6. Oh, it is wonderful that he should care for me
   Enough to die for me!
   Oh, it is wonderful, wonderful to me!
7. Text and music: Charles H. Gabriel, 1856–1932
   
   
   Love, 
   Kenzie
   

Now I Know Thou Fearest God

In the Bible is the story of Abraham and Isaac, Abraham's son. Back then as a form of worship, God's people were asked to make sacrifices. They sacrificed the first and best of their flocks. This time however instead of sacrificing an animal, Abraham was asked to sacrifice his one and only son Isaac. In the Bible it says that Isaac carried the wood for his father, which means that Isaac was no little boy. He also asked his father where the lamb was to be sacrificed. I'm not a parent yet, so I can't relate too much to what Abraham was thinking and feeling as he walked with Isaac to the mountain where he was to kill him. After Abraham had tied Isaac up and was lifting the knife to deliver the fatal blow, God spoke and commanded him to stop. This is what God told him next, "for now I know that thou fearest God, seeing that thou hast not withheld thy son, thine only son from me." (Genesis 22:12)

My stake president shared that story with me today as I was released from being a full-time service missionary. As many of you know, I have been dealing with health problems that cause a lot of intense pain, but that's not the reason I decided to be released. On Tuesday one of my ministering sisters came and visited me. We talked about missions for a bit then moved on to other topics. I suddenly had a strong prompting that God was pleased with me and I had done what I needed to do in my mission. That feeling stayed with me for quite some time. I admit I was upset. I loved the 3 weeks I was able to serve and wanted to get back at it as soon as I was better. However, I knew that God knows what is best for me. So, I got an appointment with my stake president and here I am. I'm not sure what God has planned for me next, but I hope and pray He will continue to guide me along the path I should take and direct me to people who need His love. I love this Gospel and found much joy and satisfaction in the service I performed. I love my Heavenly Father and I love the Savior. I am so thankful for all of you and your love and support through my mission. I am grateful for the opportunity I had to serve in that capacity. I am very grateful for the ability and faith I have to receive personal revelation and my closeness with the Spirit.

Love,
Kenzie

Week 3 & 4

Week 3

Hello all! This past week I felt so much better! On Tuesday at the food pantry every person that I helped through the store expressed their gratitude for a program like that and were grateful for my service there as well. I am so glad to live in this community that donates time and money to help those around them. 

Wednesday I went to the temple with my mom and did sealings so I knew what I was doing for my service on Friday. On Thursday I didn't go to the Family History Center because it closed for Halloween at the time my shift would have started. Friday I finally got to serve in the temple for the first time since my mission started. I love the temple. I served as a patron doing work for my ancestors. I did initiatories first, then a session, then did some sealings.  It was a great day! On Sunday I went to my first mission meeting with the Evansons and the other service missionaries. It was great to gather with the others and hear about their experiences throughout the week.

Week 4

This week I wasn't able to make it to the family history center on Thursday because I was in so much pain. Tuesday I did go to the food pantry though and loved it like always! On Friday at the temple I did initiatories and an endowment session again then left early due to pain. A significant thing that happened this week was during the session a lady was going through for her first time, it was a lady I helped at the food pantry a week or two ago. Afterwards I went and said hello and she gave me a hug. It was so good to see her there and know she is receiving the help and love she deserves. 

Thank you all for your love and support!
Love,
Kenzie

Week 1 & 2 of My Life as a Missionary

Week #1

This is Sister Sanders reporting for duty. Week number one went pretty well besides getting sick at the end of it. I already had a good scripture study and prayer routine, but studying the Gospel for an hour each day has made such a difference in my life. I don't know if its because I am a missionary now, I slowed down my study, or realized I have more time than I thought I did, or all of the above, whichever it is my scripture study has become more meaningful to me and I have learned so much more from my studies this week than I ever have before. 

On Tuesday I went to the Food Pantry from 11-1. The process of taking the customers through the store was simple and easy to get a hang of and it was very enjoyable visiting with the different people who came in. That night I had institute at 6:30-7 and it was a spiritual feast like always. 

Wednesdays I would normally go to the YSA activity that night, but was in a lot of pain and unable to attend. 

On Thursday I served at the family history center from 1-5. I have done a lot of family history, but didn't think I knew enough to help people, as I began helping an older lady who came in I realized I knew more about the family history website and connecting families than I thought I did. It was hard sitting in a chair for 4 hours, because static sitting often causes pain, but decided I will take short breaks and walk around the church while I'm there to get me through the 4 hrs. I also had a terrible headache after staring at computer screens for that long, but figure I will get used to that. 

Friday is normally my temple day from 11-4, but because I have bronchitis I had no energy and spent the weekend resting and am praying for a quick recovery so I can get going with this new week! Thanks for all of your love and support!

Week #2

This week I was sicker than sick, but when Tuesday morning came around I got myself to the Food Pantry, ready to serve...and they sent me home to rest. The rest of the week I stayed home just trying to breathe. I continued my Gospel study each day for an hour. Saturday and Sunday I began feeling better and was able to go to church, I am looking forward to this week as I continue to regain my health and strength. 

Love,

Kenzie

To Act in Faith

            During June’s stake conference as I sat at the adult session I suddenly and repeatedly had the thought that I needed to serve a service mission, now, this was not in my plans at all (I planned to get my health under control and head back to Logan to attend USU in the Fall) I kind of freaked out. Needless to say, I don’t remember much else from stake conference. When I got home, I cried and cried and cried. To be told to drop everything and postpone all your plans and do something completely different is scary! The next day I prayed about it and felt calm that serving a service mission was what I needed to do. As I went through the process of submitting my papers and got closer to this actually happening, I was plagued with doubts about if what I was doing was right. My anxiety shot up and I was still having health problems. I’ve been so worried about how I’m going to serve when I never know when pain is going to hit me. With all this happening, how did I have enough faith to act on this prompting that was not in my plans and get to where I am today?

            My faith began as a little child singing “I Am A Child of God” in primary, it grew as I recited the YW theme each week in Young Women’s. One culminating test of faith was during my Junior year of high school when I had a prolonged stay at a mental health facility and was diagnosed with depression. I was surrounded with negative people and was in the worst place mentally I’d ever been. A couple days into my stay I found a Book or Mormon and began reading it in my free time (which we had a lot of). In that dark, depressing time it was hard to feel the Spirit and hard to have faith that this was something I needed to go through. I hated every minute there but had never read The Book of Mormon in such a soul-searching way, nor exercised my faith with such fervency. This past year I was diagnosed with endometriosis, which unchecked can cause severe, debilitating pain. For many months all I could do was lay on the couch and pray for a solution. During that time, I learned to have faith that God does hear my prayers and I developed a closer relationship with Him. This past January I moved to Logan to attend school, a month into the semester I was struck with intense pain again. We went through the process of trying all sorts of new things to get me feeling better, still with no luck, I moved back home. I couldn’t understand why God wanted me home again and why I was in so much pain again. I kept praying to understand why this was happening to me when I received the prompting to serve a mission. All of those trials, the pain, the confusion all built my faith so when God told me to change my plans, I would have faith enough to obey. Alma 32 says faith is not a perfect knowledge. I didn’t know then why I had so much pain or why I still do, but I don’t need to know, I just have to have faith that God does know. Elder L. Tom Perry once said: “Even with the slightest tug from the Master, we must be willing to completely alter our course.” He also said: “Obedience is a choice, a choice between our own limited knowledge and power and God’s unlimited wisdom and omnipotence.”

            Now, let me briefly describe the process of being called to service mission since most people don’t know how it works. I fill out the same papers that other missionaries do , have the same meetings with the Bishop and Stake President. They add comments saying they recommend me for a service mission, but it is up to the prophet and quorum of the 12 to decide what kind of mission I will serve. I waited about 4 weeks for my call to come. It said that I would be serving a church service mission and that in the next 30 days more details would come. The next step is to meet with Bishop, stake president, parents, and the mission leaders over the Brigham area, we discussed what options I have to give service in the community. Then the mission leaders took me around to the possible places. The Bishop’s storehouse, food pantry, temple, family history center, DI, and the Distribution Center. I then came up with a schedule of when I want to go where, that was sent to Pres. Mecham then to SLC to the apostles, they approved it and sent it back and that was considered my assignment call. I was set apart as a full-time missionary this past Monday and began my mission on Tuesday where I spent 2 hours at the food pantry, I will also be at the family history center on Thursdays and the temple on Fridays. Some of the rules are like proselytizing missionaries, no dating, no babysitting. Some rules are a little different, I only have to wear my name badge at church and at my service assignments. So, that’s the process, like I mentioned earlier my anxiety from this change continued to rise, I spent a couple nights crying because I was so stressed and was honestly hoping when I went to get set-apart that the Spirit would tell Pres. Mecham that God needed me doing something else besides a mission. While I was being set apart, I cried, not happy tears, but anxious, am I doing the right thing tears. When I got home, I began to feel strength seeping into my body and peace settle in my mind and heart. To be set apart as a missionary for Christ is a very ennobling experience.  I began to be excited again to start my mission and realized once again how if we put our faith in God, He will provide a way for us to accomplish all He commands us to do. 1 Nephi 3:7 says exactly that, “And it came to pass that I, Nephi said unto my father: I will go and do the things which the Lord hath commanded, for I know that the Lord giveth no commandments unto the children of men, save he shall prepare a way for them that they may accomplish the thing which he commandeth them.” Honestly, I don’t know why I was so worried, I got to the food pantry and loved it there and couldn’t wait to go back. I am so excited to serve God’s children for the next 12 months and be able to grow and strengthen my faith even more. I spent 4 hours at the family history center, 3 of which was spent helping one woman connect her aunt and her family to her family tree so she could do the work for them. How grateful I am that I have faith in the Plan of Salvation and that I know there are many people waiting to step into Spirit Paradise and out of Spirit Prison. I wasn’t able to go to the temple this week, due to having bronchitis, but look forward to going next week!

            In October’s general conference Elder Alvarado gave a talk on trials and faith. In it he said: “Ultimately, everything God invites us and commands us to do is an expression of His love for us and His desire to give us the blessings reserved for the faithful.” I believe I can honestly say I am one of His faithful. I chose to come to Earth, thereby choosing Christ’s plan over Lucifer’s. I chose to be baptized at the age of 8 and received the Holy Ghost. Throughout my life I ‘ve tried to listen to the Holy Ghost, sometimes I don’t, but I have faith that I can repent and try again. I chose to receive my endowments in the temple and make more covenants with my Heavenly Father. I chose to serve a service mission for my Savior. All these required faith in my Heavenly Father that if I keep my covenants, He would keep the promises He made with me. I had to have faith that the Savior knows me and will help me through this journey called life. I also had to have faith in myself, that I was and am worthy to receive help from my Father in Heaven and my Savior Jesus Christ.

Love,
Kenzie

Created in the Image of God

Because of some recent health problems I gained a lot of weight, my clothes didn't fit anymore, I was more tired, and I hated that it seemed like no matter what I wore it was very obvious that I had gained weight. When those health problems were resolved I decided to go to a nutritionist and get some professional help losing weight. She recommended a few changes to my diet and exercise, the only problem was I had just injured my foot and was in a boot. I also knew that if I tried to change everything at once I would get overwhelmed and end up quitting. I began my new regime and had been working at it for at least a month and a half with no visible results, needless to say I was frustrated. During this time I would keep making the same mistakes over and over again and beating myself up over it each time. I came to loathe how much I weighed and the stretch marks beginning to show all over my body. I hated having to buy bigger clothes and trying to change my normal routine and eating habits. It is hard! One thing that has helped me was a discussion we had at institute a couple weeks ago. We discussed how God knows we are mortal and will always make mistakes, but He loves us anyway. One point that was brought up was how the scriptures teach that when we sincerely repent God remembers the sin no more, so even though we might make the same mistakes over and over again, as long as we are fully repenting God views it as the first time we've made that mistake. How eye-opening that was for me to know that God loves and supports me through every repeated mistake as long as I am taking the steps to sincerely repent. 

Though that was a great reminder for me, I still found myself upset because of my appearance and weight. My mom recommended I read the August Ensign and New Era because the whole topic of this month was the body. I took her advice and read each article that had to do with the body. I read about how our bodies are temples for our spirits and how we are created in the image of God. These things I already knew, but as I kept reading I learned things that most people know, but don't accept in their own lives. Some tips were given on how to improve one's body image and stop negative thinking. A few of those tips were: seeing as God sees through the lens of love, realizing that Satan is the one putting those negative thoughts in our heads because he doesn't have a body like we do, and the one I liked the best was: when negative thoughts come about my body, practice gratitude for what my body can do! I got to an article that didn't have much to do with what I've been talking about when suddenly I was overcome with love, God was telling me that I am loved and I am worthy, and I am beautiful and amazing and everything else Satan kept telling me I was not. Now, I know those thoughts won't stop completely, but I do know that now I have that affirmation from God to keep me going through those times when I just don't feel good enough. I am going to keep at my diet and exercise goals, I am going to keep praying and studying the Gospel, and above all I am going to remind myself what God thinks of me and be grateful for what my body can do and does do everyday. I am so blessed to have a loving Heavenly Father in my life who I keep in frequent contact with and a Savior who suffered below what I ever will so He can lift me from underneath. I will end with a great quote from our prophet President Russell M. Nelson: "With your body being such a vital part of God’s eternal plan, it is little wonder that the Apostle Paul described it as a “temple of God.”¹⁴ Each time you look in the mirror, see your body as your temple. That truth—refreshed gratefully each day—can positively influence your decisions about how you will care for your body and how you will use it." ("Decisions for Eternity," Ensign, Nov. 2013).

Love,
Kenzie